Dust Off This Ol' Blog

Hey there .. yeah I know it has been quite a while.. no actually it has been a very long time since I updated this old blog of mine.. goddamn I dont know why it took me so long and I dont know why I have been so lazy.. haha maybe thats just me u know. but anyway I got tons of stories that I wanna share with u guys. okay then.. first things first.

1. My Studies

Okaaay so right now I am continuing my studies in UiTM Shah Alam as a degree student in Masscommunication. Yep the journey to get here was rough but hey I am still alive and I made it this far so its safe to say that I am holding on huhu.. after this I am gonna be end up doing practical at who knows where but I'll survive like always.. peace! 

2. My Vacation

well recently I have been going out with my friends just hanging out and doing crazy stuff.. normal stuff I mean. We hadnt got a lot of time to go out to some places for a vacation due to certain issues like money and time. But hey, anywhere is awesome as long as u got ur friends around right. InsyaAllah soon with ada nya rezeki we'll heading out there together raising hell hahaha..

3. My Life

My life? goddamn where do I start? haha there's just so much that has been going on with my life u know and some of it are not that good. Things with my family are not doing so well right now.. we've been facing some financial problems.. u know things to get done and bills to pay.. but we are trying our hardest to fix it though and what is important is that we keep our love strong and stick together no matter what. Ibu ayah kakak ammar, I love u guys! 

4. My Relationship

I just recently broke up.

believe me it is taking its toll on me. I have not been living well because of this.. some things that I cant even put it in words to describe some of my feelings right now.. but hey.. what the fuck.. I admit that it hurts til now.. where ever u are out there, I wish u the best of luck and goodluck with ur life.. but fucking shit man.. why does my love life always didnt end up well? How many times must I go through with this shit? Haihhhh life has a very weird sense of humour... I'll say bring it! 

5. Future Plans

To talk about my future plans, as usual I have to survive no matter what and plan ahead my life as it goes on. Or maybe just sit back and relax for now.. let the future me do the rest haha... I must say things has been quite interesting going on with my life.. some are bad and some are good.. we are all human, and we all made mistakes.. what counts is what we do after that, do we let it bring us down forever and do we get up and do something about it? U choose.. me? I fucking not let it get to me for long.. and who knows maybe I'll stumble into a pot of gold tomorrow? it wouldnt hurt to be a bit positive from time to time yeah? hehe and who knows also who I will meet next.. whoever is out there.. my future bride I mean.. and a girl of course! wait for me.. coz I just havent met u yet.. haha see ya guys next time.

Frustrated

Goddammit Jake!! Keep it together now! Why are you acting like a fool?? You used to be a lot better than this!! Arghh I don't know what's gotten into me recently but I've been feeling this sick fucking annoying and miserable pain inside my Heart for a long long long time now and I don't really know why..hmm well probably because I've been facing huge problems that I never had before in my entire Life all at Once and right now, it's killing me slowly!! 

C'mon Jake..cool down please..so before this, every time I got a problem I usually solved it very smoothly and calmly coz' that's just the way I am and that's just the way I handle things around but Until now..Life just hit me in the freaking Face..I'm literally Losing my mind but I still got some sanity left..that helps me to chill for a moment..

Who am I really am? Who am I? Who is the Real me really is? Questions questions in my mind right now..which I can't find the right answers..Why? I don't know..What's gotten into me?? I don't know..Am I really losing my touch??? I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!!!! I just wanna kick somebody in the head and stomp it down couple of times til I'm fully satisfied..and I think I know who's the cause of all this..YOU. Yeah..You..

I hated you so bad right now and I think that you're one of the most Unappreciated person I ever met..and right now, I get to bear all the burdens that You CAUSED!! Don't you know how much I'm suffering right now? Don't think that I couldn't change back to the Old me again..Who is the Old me you ask? The Old me likes to beat people up and screwing things around and walk away like he just don't care about the consequences that will happen..yeah that's the old me..I'm a bad guy..I didn't like who I was before but right now I just don't care..its you who caused all this and some day you will pay for what you did to me..

The Holiday Conclusion

I'm not sure whether the title is right or wrong but it sure does sounds cool..Anyway, Assalamualaikum kawan2, today I'll be writing the conclusion of my extraordinary semester break holiday..

well, first of all since I got back home I found myself in a very moody mode because my X-Box 360 console was nowhere near to be found. It had been sent off to the gaming factory for some repairs and upgrades by my lil' brother..Oh well, at least I had my computer..to cut it short, I spent almost a month and a half living without playing my X-box 360..believe when I tell you that it sucks the hell out of me..I've been suffering out of boredom, u know..luckily I got my friends and families. Together we ventured on a wonderful journey through the holidays until' I didn't realize that my holiday was almost over..

First Activity: Menderu Waterfalls.

Sorry I couldn't get a better picture because it was raining and I'm just too lazy to snap pictures coz' I want to dive in the cool water and chill with my friends! Hahaha..But seriously, after a while as the rain starts pouring much heavier, It was starting to get much colder..but we kept on swimming around until one of us got out and head to shelter..It was freaking cold..but somehow quite enjoyable. So we got out of the water and dry ourselves and wait for the rain to stop and put out clothes on and went back home..The End.

Second Activity: Teluk Kalung Beach

Boy this one was a blast! We had a picnic over there and a little chicken barbeque for breakfast..but actually by the time we got there, it was already 12 O'clock in the afternoon so technically we had lunch just skip out breakfast..huhu but anyway, there I was watching my friends grilling the chicken and the others were enjoying themselves swimming at the beach..even I included. Haha I don't wanna miss the excitement so I decided to join them swimming..believe me that we had a blast! After the swim, all of us gathered and ate our lunch..I brought 10 Nasi Lemak bungkus for my friends and I so that we can ate it with the chicken that were just been grilled..It was stunningly delicious. So, after that we chill and had a little chat before we got up and pack ourselves and went back home..The End.

Third Activity: Fishing

This one took place at Pantai Marina near Kemaman..I didn't have any fishing set skills so I just sit at the back and took photos..haha it's quite fun just to watch my friends fishing but unfortunately we didn't caught enough fishes there so we decided to head to another fishing spot..

Now this is in Bukit Kuang where some of my friends lived there so it was very near..we sat there for almost 2 hours but again, luck was not on our side..we did not caught any fishes there..it was very disappointing but honestly I just don't care..I just like hanging out. Anyway, we eventually decided to bet on our last card which was to head straight to one of the most popular fishing spot around..

The Abandon Star Cruise Jety itself baby! There we saw a lot of people hanging around while fishing and we came to do the same also..we felt the cool breeze of the wind while chillin' out and it was fun..we also saw a group of fishes swimming nearby the jetty and the scenery was damn beautiful..the place was so calm and steady and it felt peace..Somehow, we were very unfortunately..for the third time we failed to catch any fishes that day..so we went back home in utterly depressed..but still, it was Fun.

Fourth Activity: Walimatul Urus

It was my cousin's wedding and we had this one prepared for like three straight days..Of course I helped them getting ready for all of this while taking some pictures as well..the wedding was so crowded and lots of happy folks around..it was hectic but harmony at the same time..nevertheless, the food was awesome! And I'm Glad to be part of the family to celebrate this wonderful occasion..

So there you have it guys..truth be told I had a lot of activities but I'm too lazy to post all of it..hehe so these 4 awesome activities will be just enough..My Holiday is fun..but I admit there are times that I regret living through some of the moments and somehow I wish I could turn back time to change it back to be perfect..but then again, nothing is perfect right..everyone makes mistakes and everyone lived through their lives eventually..the important thing is you forgive people..then you forget about the past mistakes..live life to the fullest as I should say..hehe Take Care people and may your holidays be Splendid also..

A Picture worth A Thousand Words.

Breaking The Rules

Dear Blog,

Over the past months, I broke one of the rules in life and now it's killing me slowly..let's just say that my Day light became my Night and my Night Time became my Day light..

I've been living this way for a long period now and I thought that it was cool..you know, cause' I thought I could use a little time for myself..it's peaceful and it clears my mind from any problem..then I got used to live like this till' now and believe me that it's taking it's toll..usually, I spent my time playing games and probably did some reading..other times, I just watched movies till' day light comes..last few weeks, when I got home from my campus, I was told that my game console was brought to repair in a shop and I could get it back two weeks from now..bugger..that still leaves me my computer so there's not much to worry about..but no..unfortunately, today my computer had broken down and causes a lot of problem which I can't used it at all..so I sent it to the workshop to get it fixed..damn..day by day without those two things, my life was simply hard to live for..I got bored of doing other things such as reading and watching movies..I have few friends over here in my hometown cause' most of them are still studying and won't be back here for a long time..

So what now? I'm losing my mind right now and I don't know what to do..I'm stuck here can't sleep at all in the night..when I tried to sleep early, eventually I'll be waking up again..my brain has already got used in sleeping in day light..it's hard for me to sleep at night again..Insomnia..that's something you won't wanna mess with..it kills you slowly..at one time, it got you thinking of things that you never thought you would be thinking of..sometimes about your life, relationship and families..

It's too late for me to turn back now..this is what I get by messing with Life's Rule.